Sylph Angel

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Hey guys. I haven't been posting! :o Sorry, I've been really busy, and my thoughts are quite messed up, non-lasting. They follow a sort of pendulum pattern... Happy, apathatic, not so happy. But it doesn't go to the not so happy side much, because everything freezes when I turn apathatic, and... You don't want to hear about, trust me. Haha. Anyway, I thought of sharing some memories lately.

My first memories are from my nursery days... :P I remember picking out butterflies out and colouring them, swinging on railings as I was waiting to board a ferry...

My parents placed me in a childcare center. It's in an interesting location... Funny, how my fate is so tightly tied to that place. It was naptime, they sent us to some room... Lights out. I was scared, alone. Everyone around me lied still, unmoving, while I sat up, waiting apprehensively for someone to pick me up, out of that place. It was dark, and I was frightened.

Dark shapes moved past the open doorway, and hope rose within me each time. But no one came in... No one reached out to me... I eventually got fed up, picked up my dear pillowblanket (lovely pillow in the likeness of a frog's head, which had a compartment inside you could unzip, to remove a blanket), and left the room.

I sat with my back to the wall opposite the door, in the brightly lit corridor. I was hugging my dear pillowblanket tightly, as people walked past... I felt dead out of place, but it didn't matter, as long as I was out of the darkness. Then some woman bent down beside me. She had long, dark hair, fair complexion, quite slim, and I think she was wearing long black pants (pardon my imperfect memory :P). Said some words to me I can't really recall. Memory ends there.

Britney Spears really is not bad. Honestly, just turn a blind eye to the random stuff, and listen to the music alone...

Everytime I see you in my dreams, I see your face, it's haunting me. My dreams, my dreams... So vivid! I practically lead another life at night... Like, last night I walked along a beach, went swimming... Marvelled at the lovely stormclouds, shallow pristine waters.

I also remember that afternoon. My mom was spending her lunch break with me. You see, she worked as a pharmacist back then. Which meant she was VERY busy. I think she had to take some night shifts too, in addition of full day work. That also meant I was alone a lot. That day was different. We played with my dear dinosaur toys. There was the black triceratops and the blue one, and my favvie bonehead (pachysomethingsomethingsomething, call it bonehead for convenience), among others. I was having fun...

It stand out because memories like that are rare. Did you know the most memorable memories are the ones attached with the most emotion? You know now. :D

I remember a Natalie... Cute lovely Natalie... She was always so jumpy, excited! As though she would explode at any moment. Then... Urgh, it really makes me want to scream. Scream out loud. Scream that I'll never have another chance, never again.

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