Sylph Angel

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Hey everyone. I realize I haven't been posting much... I just don't have much to say. And can't be bothered, too. So, what have I been doing? Training, going out some more...

I've been reading Twilight too! Honestly, I find it intensely boring. I don't care about Bella's life. Really, she can jump off a cliff or something for all I care. SPLAT! The end. That would be great. And Edward can try cracking his own skull, or ask the Volturi to do it for him... Seriously Twilight, END ALREADY. Thus I stopped reading. Haha.

Haha, I'm on 93.7million now, only 6.3million more! I'm close, very close. Should be able to get 100million by next week.

Here we go again...

Almost always mutter that to myself when I'm about to do something painful.

I've got a problem. A really big problem. Okay, maybe it isn't so big... Yet. I'm becoming emotionally numb. Is that a problem? Come to think of it, this was the exact point of my endeavour, to rip my heart.

No, not physically, obviously. Emotionally, I mean. I feel enough physical pain to my heart. You should know right? If you're an athelete... Feels like someone stabbing a knife through my heart and jerking it left and right. What to do when I feel this way? Stop? Haha, don't kid me. I know through experience that stopping makes the pain worse. Keep going... Take the pain in hand, fight on harder.

And the pain disappears. Is that how you deal with emotional heartbreak? Well, I'm NOT heartborken. Just been watching and READING about all those heartbroken people. I guess the numbness is one solution. IDK, IDC, and I'm very happy about that, thanks. :D

I've always been the kind of girl, who hid my face...

At least there's no need to hide her voice! :P Haha.

I have a problem with my moods. :/ Possibly like that compulsive liar. For me it's more of the way I treat people. I realize I'm crabbier when I'm hungry or tired or in pain. Mhmm...

Tell me why, you're so hard to forget.

Hard's not impossible.

Kay, bye. May add on if I feel like it.

vεﯠαחƒőχ @ 5:20:00 PM.