Sylph Angel

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Heyhey everyone. This is dedicated to Fal.

Stand up when when it's all crashing down. And one day, what's lost can be found.

Hahahaaha, I just heard this weird quote, "Do unto others before they do unto you". Yes, love others, before they love you.

Because if you wait for them to take the first move, there may never be a first move. And even though your first move may not be followed by a second, love anyway. The ability to love is a gift. To love is a joy in itself. The reason why love hurts so much sometimes, is because we give conditions to love. Say... "X loves Y (I've got algebra sickness :o), how could Y ignore X?" Then X gets hurt, blahblahblah. How about, "X'll love Y regardless", instead?

I don't know what to think now. My eyes are open wide (it's eleven forty pm :o), my mind is blank... So peaceful. I'm FREE. There's no wrong...

Absence...? Haha, this is from Fal. Just love freely!

Woah my sight becomes super screwed up after reading. Like, can't focus on anything properly for half an hour. All the better, that I cannot see. Byebye!

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Hello!

Thing's have become clearer now. It's mainly not a forgiveness thing, it's more of a... Let's distance ourselves sort of thing.

You know how sometimes you want to say something evil, then waves of giddyness come over you, and you shut up.

Come to think of it, without the horrific amount of hurt I went through, I will never have been willing to properly live without them, ever. There's your reason, that's what I'm holding on to. Freedom.

I fully realize it's not possible. Kinda knew that before I started my escapade. But me, being natually... curious... thought it would be rather interesting. Haha, this coming from someone who walks for 7hours just for the heck of it. In case you haven't noticed, I do get hurt a lot. Training doesn't help. Hours of pain each week -.- At least I'm not in the national team, or it'll become days of pain.

Ehh I'm quite sleepy. Almost twelve, and I have yet to brush my teeth. Hehe, lack-of-training-sleep-late-ness. NO MORE TRAINING!! So there goes my pain (most of it, anyway, still do self-training). THEREFORE, I GO AROUND BEING HIGH (and uttering more trash than usual, but that's not the point).

No more blood... :D Bye!

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Hey everyone. I had a dream last night! Really sweeeeet and interesting. I really wanted to post it up here, but I think I should not.

It's basically blah blah blah, then I sold Leon a potion which tells you whether you're hot or not for $37. (second part has nothing to do with first part)

Mmmmm I should be studying. Byebye. If anything, message me.

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Thank God, for destroying what would have been a hateful post.

I still love, I still care, just not the same way now. I truly care. Lately I've tried to forget though, because the thoughts bring nothing but confusion. She's not a heartbreak thriller. Not like them. She's different. I'll keep telling myself that, thanks. But then the facts creep in... estou tonto.

The above paragraph was intensely edited.

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Hehe I was being electrifying today, again! Kinda got tired making 1cm sparks between the table (the metal parts) and my scissors, so I supercharged myself, and attempted to zap and ant crawling on the wall. :D Haha I KNOW I'M SUPER MEAN.

At first nothing happened as my scissors came near to the ant. I did notice however, a freakish static sound filling the air, and the ant stopping dead in its tracks (it was crawling around). I wondered if I managed to charge after all. So I placed the scissors close to the table, and there was a spark. Maybe ants just don't trigger sparks? Hmmm... they ARE biomass, like humans, and humans DO spark (hurtz too LOL).

So I tried again. Supercharged myself. Placed my scissors nearer to the ant. Was there a spark? No, but something DID happen, which freaked me out. THE ANT FLEW OFF THE WALL TOWARDS MY SCISSORZZ. Now that's some psychic right there. Haha. If I'm not wrong, scizzors (metal) are negatively charged, so the positive charge of the ant (organic matter) got attracted. Ahhh science.

I need to mug chemistry! Byebye.

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