Sylph Angel

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Hey people. I have a snowglobe on my finger! :D It's basically a blister, filled with liquid, with white specks floating inside it! Hahaha they move when I shake my finger! Now howww did I end up like that... oh yes, I remember...

I was rowing dragonboat, and my fingers were burning, but I kept going anyway. If my muscles tear and I'm unable to row anymore, great! Sadly all I've got are blisters and abrasions. Bleh. May the bloodstains on the paddle bear witness to my pain. I hate it when I shower after training. The water washes over all my abrasions, and I scream in pain. Disgustinggg. I'm gonna quit the first chance I get.

There's a song. It puts me on the verge or tears. All those memories it brings back, what could be, what isn't. As I type down my index number, I gape. What's with that number. OMG stop reminding me! I'm trying to LET GO, and you guys aren't helping. What's with the message reply betting, and the username?

Ouch. Is it my fault? My emotions are supposed to be my own, not of another. My mistake. My wrong. My fault. I NEED TO CHANGE, AND I NEED TO MEAN IT!! Okay. I attempt to change again. Hopefully this time I'll succeed.

Joy is elusive, but I have faith, and I pray you will have faith too. Your joy is my joy. Your hurt is my hurt. I can't make myself happy, I need your help! :D

Yesssss I'm going to watch my first movie this weeeeeek! Okay, so I watched two last week, and one the week before... Heyyyy it looks like I have a life! Thanks everyone who went with me.

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I'm back!!! That was some great movie. Movies are great when you have great people sitting next to you :D Hahahaha.

I finally got the answer to my problem. It's sooooo simple! Hahahaha I guess you need to be a 14 year old girl to figure it out........

The abrasion on my hands are looking bad, and they hurt too. I was holding on to the bar when the bus jerked. The blood clots strectched, and I stifled a scream, made one of those choked noises. SUPER PAINFUL! I don't know how I'm going to train tomorrow.

Byebye.

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