Sylph Angel

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Hello everyone. I'm going to try and be Christian-like. I won't call myself a Christian just yet, not until my mental state truly translates into actions.

My suspicious nature remains. I still cannot trust fully, I need time to do that. I mean, I do trust people, but not with everything. I find that "total surrender" and "surrender" is different. Total surrender is complete faith, totally unshakeable. Surrender may not be total faith. I want to keep my mind open to other things, and utilize my own thoughts, not just follow everything mindlessly.

There comes the challenge of changing my thoughts such that they become as pure as possible. Are my thoughts very pure now? No. I can fight off hatred, evil, lust, but I do not always succeed. I really need a power source... And I seem to have found one, the One.

Hey! Congratz to me and thanks to everyone who feels the same way. I'm still a baby, but I will grow!

Haha I'm being so positive, hahahaha. Hahaha. Dunno why I feel this way... Am I feeling joyful? Or am I laughing at myself?

Don't talk to me about this. I won't talk about it.

CYA!

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