Sylph Angel

Monday, December 29, 2008

Good day everyone! It's a good day indeed! No training! Mhmmphh... I think I'm lying... Urgh I'm such a liar. For one thing, I can't stand one day without training. For another thing, I just did 123 pushups. Yeah, I always push myself a bit more to make the number of pushups I do a nice number.

Since there's no training today, I'll have to talk about other stuff. Let's see... How about, voices in my head? Sounds interesting? I think it is too =]

Central Voice - This is like, the pillar by which the voices go around. The observer, describer, sometimes the punching bag. It's neutral. And it's the writer of this. It's clear, emotionless, pretty much monotone.

Voice of Sense - The most favoured voice, in my opinion. It's my common sense. Probably saved me from death many many times. Like, let's say I get this sudden urge to run blindly across a busy road. This voice talks (or forces?) me out of it. It's also my intuition, and I know my intuition is amazing... Totally. It's loud I guess, sometimes slightly angry, with a definite tinge of authority.

Voice of Depression - Rarely appears unless triggered by strong emotional pain. I swear if you ever hear the words it says, you'll cry too. It reminds me of all the horror I've been through... Thing I try not to remember. Not just that. It also revives the emotions I felt before, adding it to the current pain. Gets worse every time. So I must be happy. Always happy. =] It's cold, feels like a beast looming over it's dying, helpless prey... Talks in a low growl.

Voice of Joy - Happy highness. Sometimes random, sometimes clear, happy sense, detached sense. Meaningless happiness to the max. I realized I can work myself up into this state, if I focus enough, maybe play some high music. It's high pitched, high.

Voice of Spite - Hate. Hate words. Meanness. Sometimes stuff comes to mind about certain people/things. If I didn't have the sense to stop this, I'd probably be dead hated by now. It's sharp, and ummm... honest?

Voice of Aggression - Obviously, this voice rarely comes. Only when I truly need to push very hard. Most of the time when I push I'm cold, calm, controlled. It still gets me tired in the end, but agression totally kills me if I manage to keep it up long enough. Also reveals itself in arguements, but rarely. It come with a weird vibration, naturally, it's loud. Kinda like the elf queen (in her crazy state) who gave Frodo the glowing thingy in Lord of the Rings.

Voice of Desire - I'm currently trying to include more sense into this voice, so it won't lead me into... undesirable situations... Sometimes it's good desire, like when I want to do pushups, but my sense tries to talk me out of it, because of all the pain I know would feel. Other times, like when I'm attracted to people, it's bad. I want to be free of all crushes! I know how good it feels, but I also believe pain and joy come in equal amounts. I have to pay for all the happiness I feel while having a crush afterwards. So, desire must be stemmed.

Heyy!!! My post is so long already! Okay, random edition today. Have fun!

Byebye.

vεﯠαחƒőχ @ 11:59:00 AM.